Literal Diva

 Hi guys,  Back again! I don't have the energy for blogging these days, but here is a quick update on my life. My relationship of four years ended over the summer, I am somewhat glad it ended but also sad because he was the love of life, well until I meet the next guy.  I've been single for almost five months and I can say I am not heartbroken or into the ex so I have no problem moving on and getting into it with another man. Operation finding "Mr Right". Every guy I talk or get close to remind me of why I stayed in my previous relationship even though it was tough and I was unhappy at times, it was easier to stay knowing his flaws and shortcomings while hoping and praying for better. 

Hi guys, How are you doing? Life is being a bitch lately, I'm sitting home, unemployed, broke and gaining mad weight. YAY!!! My last post was about quitting my job which I did in the last week of November, I hopped on a plane the day after to spend a month in Lagos. Was super excited to see my boyfriend, had plans to attend concerts and slay the entire month. The big man upstairs was probably rolling around laughing at what he and the universe had planned for me. Spent the first night at my boyfriends, left the next morning to get my hair and nails done, finished and the man picked me up from mine, we talked about where to go for my birthday. Twenty minutes after making birthday plans, we stepped out of the car for groceries at the supermarket and a rental truck came out of nowhere and pinned us against two parked cars. We were stuck between the cars for a few minutes before people were able to move the truck, that was the scariest moment of my life, my life flashed before...

Hi guys, I'm not going to give a silly apology for being away for so long or promise to write more often. I'm currently going through it, I simply don't know how to live my life anymore and I am sick of everything. My job is driving me insane and I feel like I'm getting sucked into a dark hole and I'm finding it hard to crawl out.  I handed in my notice two weeks ago so I have two weeks and a few days left at work and hello joblessness.  For some weird reason, I put the day of my twenty-sixth birthday as my last day, I don't know why I did this maybe as some new age new me bullshit but I guess I'll find out as time comes. I'm very unhappy right now, I feel like I'm not living but merely existing and I'm losing my head, not put me in a straitjacket type but not completely sane either. My plan for the next few weeks is to go to Lagos, see the boyfriend talk about our plans for our future, study for the FE1's which I've been putting ...

Hi guys, So I've been in Lagos for the last three weeks and it has been nothing but chaos, I was very excited for this holiday but everything seems to be going out of control and I scared of the consequences of my actions.  As usual, I have a lot of ideas about what to do in my head, I had plans to write a lot more since my stories are mostly written about Nigerian characters and the cities I've visited in the country. I wanted to update my cv in order to start looking for a new job when I get back to Dublin, I also wanted to learn how to use excel properly and also learn other tools that will make my job search easier and increase of getting a better job.

I watched the inmates move slowly in a single file, dressed in ill-fitted clothes and cheap flip flops, they move in sync. It's been a long day with ten inmates on our list for the day. This is my favourite thing about being a guard, the court trips with inmates, watching the lawyers presenting their case with passion and eloquence.  My father wanted me to be a lawyer but his cancer robbed me of this, the family income was diverted to trying to cure the disease which later claimed his life.  I spent five years working odd jobs for survival before my uncle got me a job in Ikoyi prison, at first I was sceptical about it, being around all sorts of criminals made my skin crawl but the pay was triple the amount I earned as a waitress so I jumped at it. How bad can it be?

Hi Guys,  So I'm a bit pissed off about missing a wedding, well not because I missed the party since I've been very anti-social for the last couple of weeks. I'm pissed off I paid a hundred euros for the Aso Ebi, got it made in Nigeria and sent to London.  I missed the wedding because my Visa did not arrive on time, so now I'm stuck with another Aso Ebi I will never wear.  For those who do not know  Aso Ebi is a uniform dress that is traditionally worn in Nigeria and some West African cultures as an indicator of cooperation and solidarity during ceremonies and festive periods. So when Nigerians home and abroad have parties a fabric is picked for friends and family or people attending a party, usually is not compulsory to buy but some people take it to heart and hold malice against you for not buying. They see you as not supporting them and others see you as broke.   Since October I've spent approximately four hundred euros buying and sewing Aso Eb...

I think I'm slowly falling into depression, but then I don't want to call it depression if I'm having a few rough nights. It will be a slap in the face to those who suffer from it. But how do I explain sleepless nights, terrible mood swings and constantly over thinking and feeling like I'm failing in life. The constant need to quit my job even though i can't afford to go without a job. It's easy when you see it in movies where a person just give a huge fuck off to their job , walk away without looking back. I didn't really think of the effect the job is having on me , sitting all day, staring at a computer screen with not enough shit to keep my brain active. But hey the things we do for survival, I get angry at myself and blame myself a lot for not working harder at a younger age and taking necessary steps to secure the so called bag. Now I'm stuck at a job I dislike and I'm still not over the rejection from the last time I applied for jobs I'm ...

"God will punish you', I shouted as I tried to chase the man who robbed me" "E no go better for you ', I am fighting a battle I know I’m not going to win, but I hate being cheated, I settled on the train tracks to catch my breath, a few minutes before the train passes. A small crowd  gathered the nosy bastards who have nothing better to do on a Monday morning, I look up from after a few minutes, I have no choice, a pair of over-bleached feet appeared beside me. The sight of someone's skin bearing a striking resemblance to over roasted plantain nearly made me regurgitate the contents of my stomach. "How far now? she asked putting her hands on my waist.

I had a very interesting conversation with a young man who is a student in one of the top universities in Nigeria, a  devout Christian who lives his life for Christ. A virgin at the age of twenty one who believes others should follow his steps and stay away from premarital sex.  A few weeks ago I noticed a tweet about abstinence so I clicked the profile and noticed I was following and he also followed, however, his tweets didn't stand out to me until I saw the one about all people do on twitter is talking about sex which is not entirely true but I got his point.  His Bio Conservative Christain stood out and I knew the reason why he was tweeting about abstinence.

I expect you guys to be tired of my random rants on how my life is going and my struggles.  If you are not, here is another one. I spend a lot of time daydreaming, which leads to asking a lot of questions on things I would have done differently and the things I would change if I could turn back the hands of time.

                                                             2. "Your assignment is due next Monday, do not forget to submit on the portal before midnight,"  said professor Greene before walking out of the lecture hall. Lola waited for her equity lecturer to leave before she took down the bullet points from the whiteboard, nothing distracts her during class, listen and take notes later has always been her motto. Her coursemates know not to disturb her during lectures, it took her ignoring five people before they got they understood. The lecture hall is almost empty when she is ready to leave.  It's ten past five and her appointment in Swords for is eight. In order to save time, she wore her red 24" wig to college, hidden under a scarf. She layed the edges with Got2b glue the night before. It took thirty minutes to brus...

                                                                 1. Lola walks down Grafton street with a smile, it's a chilly autumn evening. Her luscious curls bounced with every step she took, her faux fur coat keeping her warm and fabulous at the same time. Her leather skirt showed her figure, she has a medium-sized apple shaped bottom she maintains by squatting a hundred times a day. The skirt stopping a few inches above the knees allows her to show off her legs, standing at 5'5 with the body of an athlete, her friends always regarded her as lucky for being thick yet toned. Mustard is a great colour for this time of the year, something to brighten the dull wet days. She takes a look at her self through the glass door of a store, before turning into Balfe street. The Philip Lynott statue is...

Hi guys, This is going to be a short one. Does this happen to everyone or I'm just a weirdo? So for the last few months, I've been imagining things going south with my man, different scenarios pop up in my head and that eventually leads to us breaking up. We've had issues in the past and I'm trying to forget and put it all behind me, but I find myself imagining all these weird scenarios, I don't know if a part of me really wants him to fuck up so bad or I just haven't forgiven him fully, this is someone I have plans to spend the rest of my life.  My mind is riddled with so much doubt that I'm scared of what I am going to end up doing, he is my everything. I know you have to be careful what you wish for. We currently live on different continents which put enough strain on the relationship, not seeing each other or getting freaky. I've used up most of my work holidays so I don't know the next I'll get to see him I'm tired and sick o...

What if I'm one of those women who will never get married? What if I'm of those women who will never get married? What if I'm one of those women who will spend years trying to have a child? But the society I was born into shames you if you for any of the above. Sometimes I wonder if  would end up becoming that successful aunt or friend who everyone loves yet feels sorry for because  I have no man or no children.  No one has ever died from not been married but thousands of people have been killed by their spouse all over the world.  No one has ever died from been childless, but hundreds of children are killed by a parent and hundreds of parent(s) are killed by their child(ren). Thousands of children have been abandoned and forced to have a terrible life which in most cases leads to their children having a terrible life. I have so many weird questions in my head, the older I get the more I get scared about one of these becoming...

Hi guys, I have been so busy with work I don't have a personal life anymore. My life now works in a cycle, go to work, work out when I'm not too tired, go home, eat, pray and sleep. A lot of people complain about not having a life when they start working and it heartbreaking that this is becoming my reality.  I was very excited when I got the job six months ago, it was exciting to work in a fun environment, however, everything is different now and I can't wait to get a new job. I won't say I hate or dislike my job, it is simply what I do for money because adults need money to survive. Been a qualified professional in my field, I am underpaid at my current job but I was more than happy to take it at the time because I was unhappy and almost in the state of depression. I also needed to make money, I had no money of my own. I applied to several law firms offices on arrival to the county but no one wanted to hire someone with a pass grade and no FE1. Therefore been off...

Have you ever been away from your significant other for so long that a simple compliment from the opposite sex will send tremors to part of  you body it should not ? Well this is the story of my life right now, I've been away from zaddy for almost four months and my body is starting to crack under pressure. I've been celibate for months before but this is very different, imagine been with someone who knows what your body body wants and how to please you for two years then moving to a different county because adulting is a scam. This guy on twitter slid into my DM last week after I a replied his comment about power because I thought it was funny and I was about to say the same thing. He followed me and I followed back because social media is about getting to know all sorts of people. Drops a message asking where I lived a few hours after which I replied. Fortunately and unfortunately I was in London visiting family for two nights and he lived in London. He was nice telling ...

Hi everyone, So there is this gist going around work about a girl I started working with, basically saying she is a cheerful giver and had sex with at least three different guys since we started. We have only been at the company for six weeks , two of the six weeks we spent training and barely interacting with any of the people on the floor. The entire floor has been gossiping about it, calling her loose and easy, one of the black girls over heard one of the team leads talking about it and she felt bad, so she told one of the black girls I'm friends with at work about not knowing whether or not to tell her. I noticed the girl was a bit too close for comfort with some of the guys in the office but I felt I wasn't minding my business, so i just ignored. I'm not close to her so I really cannot say anything to her, I went to uni with her sister but we were not friend and we've only had one or two conversations. I feel really sorry for her because she has been away a...

Hi guys, EID MUBARAK. So i started my new job last Tuesday and it has been great. Got the job a few weeks ago but the start date was weeks after the job offer. I really can't say much about my job description or what I do, due to privacy requirement of the company I work for I had to sign a lot of non disclosure agreement, even during the interview. The job allow a lot of opportunity to grow with the company, therefore there are lots of opportunity to move up the ladder. So far I've been on training for the last two weeks, a lot of information overload, having to learn company policies to use when working, how and when to apply them . There is also a huge staff support, people help each other with problems and work related issues, there are team leader to help , there is also a group huddle at the end of each day to discuss daily progress. I also had to adapt to a weird bus schedule with had a me walking almost an hour each day, but i figured it out yesterday. I can ...

Hi guys, I finally got a job, after eight weeks of trying and over a hundred online applications. I spent a lot of time applying for legal jobs and kept getting turned down, this affected my morale, after a while, I gave up on finding a legal job and switched to finding an entry level job that will put money in my account and also keep me busy. I got an email from a company scheduling a phone interview which went well until I was turned down at the third stage. This really got to me as they made me feel I was going to get the job, I had my hopes up and stopped searching for other jobs. BIG MISTAKE ! After I got the rejection email, I picked myself up and went to turn up at a wedding, I ended up spending the night beside an acquaintance from college who told me about the company where he works and also informed me that they are always recruiting. He sent me the links on Monday and I got a call on Tuesday asking me to come in for an interview on Thursday of the next week, which wa...

It's four am and I am having issues sleeping, I've been like this for the last seven day and its affecting me mentally , my mind wanders to dark corner it shouldn't. The fact that i am currently unemployed and not getting any replies from the jobs I applied for is not making it better . I spent most of my life as a student trying to get enough qualifications before I hit thirty, which I think is starting to look like a bad idea. I have my degree's and I am hundred percent ready for the employment market but no one wants to hire me because I have no experience. I spent a few months interning during the summer but I'm guessing that's not enough. I moved back to Dublin almost three weeks ago because this is my home, I lived here for twelve years before going back to Nigeria for law school. Stayed back for a few months after the call because my boyfriend lives there and I wasn't about to throw the entire relationship out of the window. I decided to put NYS...