Monday, 22 September 2014
I remember the time I was too scared to get up to give you a hug, the sight of you made blood rush to my brain so fast, I felt I was going to pass out, from that moment I knew there was no going back, but I'm taking that back.
I'm moving forward without you, it's the best thing to do, loving you has held me back, I made you my priority but to you I was just an option.
I am letting you go. I am saying my final good bye not forever , but for now, till I can stop grinning stupidly every time your name shows on my phone.
Goodbye until I can stop getting angry because you failed to keep yet another promise.
Goodbye until that hold you have over me is severed.
Goodbye until I learn to love myself, so another person like will you not walk into my life.
Goodbye until I stop smiling every time I say your name.
Goodbye until I stop thinking about the future we could have had.
Goodbye until you are nothing but a memory.
Its not entirely your fault, we both had it coming, I was too scared to let go even though I know I deserved way better than what you gave me, but you treated me based on the impression I gave and that I regret deeply, hopefully, I make a better choice next time. I loved you once, well I was convinced its love, but you never know what love is till you have something else to compare it too. This is an obsession one that went on too far.
I love you.
I loved you.
I choose to stop loving you, it's the best thing for me, we both know you stopped loving me a long time ago, but I was too stubborn to admit it.
Goodbye, until I can look at you without getting butterflies in my belly.
Goodbye until everything I've ever felt for you dies like a rose during a stormy winter.